I will not forget the pain and rage
The crying
the tears
The fears
Of a life growing somewhere inside me
The tiny kicks and screams
Of futility
And even that first time
When he opened his eyes
And smiled
Will not erase the rest
The pain
The tears
And my fears
So I write poetry too. Or I used to? I guess I don't so much anymore.
People talk about how beautiful pregnancy is, and the miracle of childbirth. But it was one of the worst experiences I have ever had. And I feel like our inability to have an honest discussion about how bad pregnancy and childbirth can actually be is extremely detrimental.
Post-Parturm Depression is a painfully common problem which many women are still afraid to admit having because we all have this idea that we should be overjoyed and automatically have this strong, happy healthy bond with our baby. If we are not instantly perfect mothers, if our nurturing instincts don't suddenly wake up inside of us, then obviously it is something wrong with us.
No one should have to feel this way.
No one should think that they have to suffer alone.